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12.40 a.m

3 Days before 2009

“The day my eyes were opened to your deceit”

I almost can’t believe that a person I knew for that long would do this to me…I usually don’t have many things going wrong in my life but this …..Ha for you to be so manipulative and conniving and for me not to believe what was going on was really stupid of me…..

Lucky I was warned about you …..What were you thinking? Did you really think that I would break down and cry over you? Huh? Don’t joke with me..I would never cry for scum like you….you really think you mean that much to me?

I DON’T NEED YOU. I never needed you. I was only friends with you becuz I felt fckn sorry for you cuz no one would talk to you at school. And now years later you’re telling everyone how you were Queen Bee & popular..HAHHA OMG what a fckn laugh!? Who was bullied all through primary school and high school by all the years in the school?

Who was called Bush Pig? And ugly mutt? Huh? I never cared what they called you cuz I thought you might be nice person that jst needed a helping hand in school..ppl always saying “ Amal why you’re’ friends with her she’s fckn ugly …and guys telling me to stay away from cuz of a game they made up at primary school with you having AIDS..

I thought that was really horrible of them so I befriended you..Too bad it was to my avail…

Now 4 years later I know you’re true colours..i only wished I seen it sooner

And the thing that pisses me off the most is that you wnt even fckn admit that you were wrong all you keep saying is “I don’t Know…I don’t know how that happened”

Well I don’t know aint fckn good enough….and you know nothing you say will make up for your actions and hurtful words.

Trying to sell me out to your fckn guy friends sending me fckn pictures of me to them , saying that I’m a virgin who needs to be shown a good time…you wanna get me fckn raped?? That’s what you want for me huh? So I can feel as dirty as you are when you sleep around.

That what happened to her, isn’t it? Poor girl and on one believed her….not even me..i couldn’t believe that another girl could do that to another girl …..could watch that happen to another girl……so I blocked it out of my mind..

Well too bad I have fckn beautiful loyal friends and my family who would nva let that happen to me…and you know what ?

About 50% of the reason why I stayed your friend was becuz I felt sorry for you and then I thought hey she might actually be a nice girl if you gave her a chance but no I realise that you are warped in the head and now it finally makes sense that no one stayed to be your friend but I wasted my time on you.

I give up on you because you make me tired.

So tired physically and emotionally you ALWAYS ring me up to complain about a guy that treating you bad and im soo fcnk sick of listening to all your problems you nva talk about good things that happened to you or fun things its jst always that same crap.

I am so over your shit.

God help me if I see you in public.

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